*rolls eyes at Livejournal*

Nice to know that certain *adults* still use Livejournal as a way to taunt and/or bully and/or spread rumors.

Oh, without naming names of course.

And all in the name of fun.

Ah, LJ. Your drama never ceases to amaze me.

PS: I'm not dead. Just in case any of you care. ;)

“A human being should be able to change a diaper, plan an invasion, butcher a hog, conn a ship, design a building, write a sonnet, balance accounts, build a wall, set a bone, comfort the dying, take orders, give orders, cooperate, act alone, solve equations, analyze a new problem, pitch manure, program a computer, cook a tasty meal, fight efficiently, die gallantly. Specialization is for insects.”

- Robert Heinlein

Thanks labyrinthman for your post showing the beautiful calligraphy of that quote. Methinks an art project is in order :)

One can of Ramune soda.
Comfy yoga pants and sweater.
9 pm rollerblading.

I hope these 3 ingredients help me feel better and actually sleep well tonight.

It's been a crap-tastic week.

Since I can link it to Facebook :)
I love the internets.

You are the one person who is no longer worth my time or consideration.
You asked me an honest question, I gave you an honest answer, and you wrote back with the lack of tact and with bluntness that I would expect from a kid throwing a tantrum. Which is exactly how I remember you actually. You always know exactly the right thing to say.

I'm glad too how you've broken ALL your promises. And lied in your emails. And how you've taken the word of people that you've known for like 2 or 3 years over someone you've known for 11.

So I'm done. Have a nice life, and I hope you enjoy being sullen and holding a grudge. I have much better things to concern myself with.

Maybe you should try contacting the rest of your friends once in awhile though, because they feel that ever since you met your GF, you're completely cut off from the world and ignoring them.

I'd tell you myself, but I don't plan on speaking to you or thinking about you ever again. If you want to be childish, then childish it is. I've deleted you from all my contacts, so don't expect a response if you try.

Love,
Erin

Nevermind, condo is no more.
Guess we didn't get back to him quickly enough.
Which makes me sad because I called him way back before Christmas.
Guess it was just a tease. :/

I didn't go to SHYFX.
I didn't go to Phil's CD Release party at Fever.
I didn't go to Wunderbar.
I didn't go see a movie.

I stayed home and watched the first 2 episodes of Babylon 5.

Which wasn't actually too bad.

Now that it's 4:40 AM the next day and I'm still sleepless...

I kinda wish I went out.

If I could just reset today and start over from this morning I totally would.

So I've had a few possibly life-altering things wander into my life the past week or so.

I say possibly because I still don't know if they will work out or not. I had a job interview on Tuesday that would be working from home and decent pay.. but I don't find out if I've got it until next Tuesday. (Oh the agony of waiting). Plan B is to apply @ Starbucks and/or BPs and there is no Plan C because I hope I'm not *that* unemployable! :P

The second thing is that Renzo and I found a wicked condo on 105th street and might be moving in there. It's an open floor plan/loft style that is 2 stories, so it's basically like having 2 bachelor suites on top of each other.

The pics don't really do it justice and I don't have pics of the bottom floor but it's spacious and quite lovely.
The bottom floor is more the "bedroom" area and it has new carpet and a walk-in closet (*drool*) as well as it's roughed-in for another bathroom, which we would probably just use as Renzo's beer brewin room :P Basically the only issue with this is that we need to somehow find a ton of cash by the end of February which is why I need to get my lazy butt a job!

I've been sorta mulling over in my head whether either of these things will work out, and had the craziest dream last night.

It was basically a bunch of life-changing events that have occurred in my life mashed together into one dream. At first I was moving out of my childhood home (which originally happened in about 1997 but I was my current age in the dream.) My mother and grandma were helping me pack and saying they didn't want me to leave but they realized I had to. Which is odd because in the real event, the whole family was moving out, but in the dream, it was just me.) Once I had packed everything, I had to go to my highschool for a graduation ceremony. After which I had to clean out my locker, which dismayed me quite a bit because I couldn't remember where it was. So I spent a lot of time running around panicking until I finally asked my teacher where it was. Locker #60. Don't know if that means anything.

After my highschool grad, I had to go to Playdium for the Playdium closing :( There was a lot of hugging and crying and we had to watch this (as far as I know, product of my imagination) episode of Star Trek where they were de-commissioning the Enterprise D, to help us cope.

So the way I see it.. is a bunch of things that made me sad, but ended up (eventually) leading to positive changes in my life, combined together into one big event.. maybe it means it's time to say good-bye to the old and let some positive things happen?

I hope it doesn't mean I should lay off the Chu Chu Rocket before bed.

There are some aspects of my life that I wouldn't change or trade in for all the money and riches in the world.

The rest of it.. could use a little work.

Problem is.. when I think of what would make it better.. I draw a huge blank.

What do I want to be when I grow up? .... You tell me. I honestly can't answer that.

& I hate when I actually think I do have something figured out but people respond negatively to it.

"Oh I don't think you should try the school thing again, you've wasted enough time and money on it."

"I know you think you'll like this job but that's what you said about the last one too and look how that turned out."

"You know, you could lose a few pounds you know. Your love of pizza is really starting to show."

You know what critics? You are supposed to be my family. Show a little support and maybe I'll turn out to be the person you've always dreamed I'll be.

Until then I'll keep struggling along.

First off,
I've been a bad friend and haven't been reading or commenting. Sorry! :P

Secondly I went to the Y tonight, and I gotta say.. when you aren't completely schwacked on drugs it is:

- too loud
- too full of sketchy people who ARE on drugs

The DJs I wanted to hear didn't even play tonight because it wasn't busy enough to open the basement.

Lame.

Everything in my fridge is frozen solid. :(

So I got a couple little Christmas prezzies in the mail today!

I got a beautiful home-made ornament and some vanilla softlips from my LJ secret santa.
Some super pink ruffly bum panties from mmemarilyn (Thanks again dear <3)
and.. well this isn't really a Christmas present but the super cute cellphone charm I ordered off ebay before Christmas came too. And no bills!! Woohoo!!

I, on the otherhand, have been bad. I still need to send my secret Santa gift and the little present I have for butterbee. I don't know how the time has gone by, but I can at least vouch for the fact that after-Christmas mail is quite exciting!!

Plans today are:
- To finish continue the archeological expedition I started yesterday (aka housecleaning!)
- Shopping with Bridget so that we can get fabric for Brandon to make us comfy raver pants and something to wear for NYE.
- Possibly getting a kitty! I haven't decided 100% if I will take her yet. But how can I let this cuteness go to the SPCA?



Time to stop wasting time on the internet!

So Christmas is over.
Hooray.

I went to a party on Christmas day-eve/Boxing day and it was awesome.. but I got really wasted and now feel like crap :(

Exactly what I knew was going to happen.

But I got to see James and Ian <3 Which makes it all better. And Heroes is the greatest show ever. I think I'm in love with Hiro. I want to snuggle him. hehe.

And that is all.

*Goes back to cleaning*

Here's a little Christmas card I made for my friend John. Just felt like sharing :P



What is everyone's holiday plans?

Today has been a yummy day...

Went shopping at Sunterra and bought a ton of yummy sauces, fresh fruit, a hazelnut praline chocolate bar, and apple cinnamon jam, among other things.

Went to Pharos for lunch.. delicious whole wheat crust pizza..

and I'm currently making curry with chicken, yellow peppers and baby potatoes.:D

I also bought a Christmas cactus and an Ivy plant which I hope will someday overtake my entire house :)

I remember being really confused at the end of high school. I had no idea what I wanted to do. I had honours in every class except math. I really wanted to go into Science at the U of A, but people from the U of A were trying to convince me I should go into Engineering, and even tried to give me an extra scholarship to coax me into it. My parents were trying to convince me that I should go into Arts. After all, I'd always liked writing, hadn't I? Maybe I could become a journalist!

I also kind of wanted to go a completely different path and become a chef. Or maybe become a sound engineer. I felt like I could do anything I wanted, if only I could get past the indecision I was feeling.

I took an aptitude test to try to get myself sorted out. It wasn't much help. The careers most suited to me ranged from Kindergarten teacher to doctor to youth addictions counselor. It didn't really shed any light on my career destiny.

I decided on Science, to see where it was going to lead me. It lead me to a bunch of drunken frat partys, and a spectacular exit on Dean's Vacation.

If I could take anything in my life back, it would be that first year out of highschool.

Now it's 7 years later somehow.

I haven't gotten anywhere.

I've gone from shitty job to shitty job and I don't know how to get where I want to be.

I'm tired of this aspect of my life. I want to do something.. something that will make me happy.

But I don't know if it's even possible at this point.

So this weekend involved a lot of crazyness. I went on a pubcrawl on Whyte with a bunch of Santas for Santacon. It was a lot of fun and rowdyness. I ended up getting a little too drunk.. heh. Ended up going to Starlite downtown, and then I headed to Y Afterhours for the first time since March. It was mostly fun, except for falling down in the parking lot twice.. once in front of a couple of really cute cops who just made fun of me T_T I have tons of bruises on my leg and my bum now.. I don't recommend falling on pavement while wearing a skirt.

On the way home we went to Mac's for snackages (around 4AMish) and some random couple gave us a toaster and a cake mixer. Apparently they had been wandering around downtown trying to get rid of them! So now I have a toaster and a mixer.. but I don't have an oven to bake a cake in. Oh well!

Yesterday was pretty much a write-off, since I ended up sleeping till 4PM. (oops) Then didn't really do much else other than head to BJ's house to pick up a dresser from him (finally!) and then come home and watch Jackass 2. Which was as stupid as I imagined, and there were some bits I couldn't even watch :P The butt-branding made me want to cry.

So this is why I don't update.. ever. My life is boring for the most part. Today I'm supposed to be at work but instead I'm cleaning my house and looking for a new job.

woo.

PS: My one and only New Year's resolution so far is to stop being useless. To set goals and actually keep them. I should be happy. I have my amazing boyfriend, my crazy little house, my family and my awesome friends. I just keep making stupid decisions and then letting them get me down.